My Wife From the Future, Alicia, is constantly loving me. In my life I have been, many times, unloveable. She has not just "Been there" for me. She has challenged me to be there for myself. She has pushed me beyond a "comfortable" existence. It has frustrated me, because part of me felt like saying "Oh, so I'm not good enough for you?"
That is not the case.
She understands, fully, that my dream is worth chasing, worth working for, and worth pushing myself for. And sometimes I need that push to get over myself. Nobody's gonna bring it to me, so I have to go convince them that I can bring it.
She loves animals and babies. She understands their innocence, their need for affection beyond mere attention, and values the affection they return. She will be an amazing mother. The kind that would cradle her babe in swaddling wraps 'neat her left arm, while bootknife-gutting anybody who tried to harm the child. And the kid probably would never stir. Through her clenched teeth, "This baby is SLEEPING, do you have any idea how long that took? You (RIP) stupid (SLICE) a-hole (DISEMBOWEL)?"
She has given me the safest place to be myself. And that's what we all need, that is Love. And before that, she encouraged me to find what it was that I needed to do in order to fully Love Me. To become so fully Self-Aware, without being Self-Important, because I can FEEL IT when she loves me, is the greatest way to be loved. Her understanding of the importance of letting people be who they are, as simple as it may sound, is the most complicated thing in the world. She gives everyone a fair chance to be themselves. (doesn't mean she won't cross you off the Christmas card list if you're a turd)
She has exhausted herself some nights, in the planning of our wedding. It is one of the few days of her life where much of the attention and affection will be for her, and for us. There are not many days like that in our lives. And her desire to have a great day on February 24, 2007, the care she has put into the invitations and colors and arrangements and menus and guest list (THE F*CKING TEAR-INDUCING GUEST LIST! THE BLESSED LOVELY GUEST LIST!) shows me that Feb24 is NOT just about her. I truly hope that anybody involved in that day will take the same lesson Alicia has taught me, just by loving me the way she does:
Everyone deserves their time in the spotlight. Allow them that time, and they will be forever thankful.
Attempt to dim that light, and you best watch your eyes. Your turn will come soon enough.
If anybody has ever deserved her perfect wedding, it is my Futuristic Wife, Alicia.
I love you, Alicia. More than I can write. More than I can show. I hope and pray to be the husband you deserve. So much, I love you.
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